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Sometimes i just cant help hating myself, and sometimes i just cant help hurting people, and sometimes i just cant help loving you... its my destiny, i knew it from the beggining!
Hey, why dont you guys check out www.xanga.com/xscaredofgirlzx it just might have something to do with me! (if you're REALLY dumb, that means shaun has A.D.H.D. and created another site you stupid god damn mother fucking peice of shit you!) | | |
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So, shit is weird haha. Thats about all i have to say. Ive been getting to know this really rad chick latley. Her name is Tanya. Shes pretty killer. A knockout in every department. Shes good at making me smile and laugh. Those are always good things. I need sombody like that in my life. Ive done enough frowning for a while!
I know some people are prob gonna read that and get mad. It happens though. People move on in life. I move on in life. Shit happens, and we all learn and move on. So if anybody gets mad at me, well then o well, im not sorry cause i have no reason to be. I guess im just not that same old shaun anymore, or so ive been told. To me though, not being the same shaun as before is a good thing. I was always upset, a little whimpy prick. I dont wanna be that anymore. Im gonna be open and honest about everything. Im not gonna be scared to do what makes me happy. If you guys dont like that, then that means you dont want me to be happy... so heres a big FUCK YOU, you can all suck my dick!
Im not a little boy anymore. I can make my own discions in life. This means, that im going to make my own descions from now on, not let people make them for me. Ive looked to people all my life. Now im ready to start looking to myself for the answers. Im not going to treat myself like shit anymore. I have no reason to, its just dumb.
And yes, i know this is a rant, but maybe it will get people to see that i know i have changed and instead of throwing it in my face as if it is a bad thing, embrace it as me getting happy. Im sorry if i can be happy and others cant. But i have no reason not to be happy if i can be happy. So this means im going to be H-A-P-P-Y. So get over it.
Im not the same old shaun anymore. I know, ive known since before any of you have known. Change is not always bad. Embrace it. If you dont like it. Then dont be my friend. Your loss, and mine. Itll hurt you more then me though.
So anywho, on a lighter note... Tanya is really kewl i cant wait till Wraped Tour 2k4. Me and Tanya and Leigh, and 2 others. It should be really RAD.
Me and morgan are on better terms now. We talked and shit is ok. Haha, i know i was a little distant i didnt mean to be. But she knows i love her and that im sorry! I plane on burnin her some happy cd's, and then im gonna go over and listen to them with her and chill out. That would be rad.
Im not sure whats up with allie, she seems mad, or sad, or some type of upset. I just dont think she understands that i have changed for the better, its okay though, shell see in the end hopefully, im not gonna let it pull me down though. Shit will work out in the end! If it doesnt though, then it doesnt, shit happens.
Ok, anywho, i think this is my longest xanga post EVER. haha so im out laters! | | |
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So i started to think, contrary to popular belief running is not the answer. Running is never the answer, its just a way to cheat, and why would you wanna cheat yourself in life?
So far i know im goin to Warped Tour with Leigh and Tanya. We still have 3 more tickets, but its up to leigh who goes. Warped is gonna be awesome... Avenged Sevenfold, Coheed & Cambria... damn its gonna rock!
So right now everything seems to be drama, but thats kewl, theres always rain before shine! But right now im goin to be very selfish and start thinking about myself instead of others, I need to be happy with myself first, then i can make others happy! So if anybody feels hurt or anything im sorry. This is what i have to do though. If people are truely my friends they will understand, and everything will be ok in the end. So i mean. I need my friends now more then ever, but there is a chance of gettin hurt. These are the times that friendships are challenged. Its part of life. Im sorry
Blah De Blah Blah.... Im done writing for now! | | |
| So nothing to big has been going down in life. Just chillen and shit. Nothing to snazzy. My parents think im on meth, speed, and coke. Hahaha, isnt that funny as all hell? They think this all because i go to bed at like 4 am. They also think it cause im all "schitzy" haha awesome!
No allie i am not mad at you. You seem mad at me though!? I dont know. I just decided to do what your doing. Put you on the side and search for other people. Like you said, if its fait itll happen in the end. So yea... im taking your advice, it's some good advice!
Umm other then all this nothing going on in my life. Nothing is happening! Im pretty damn happy right now. Strange, but i am. So ha... fuck you all evil doers i rock the socks! | | |
| So today, Mandie and Micah came over at like 8am. They crashed in my room with everybody else. i woke up at like 1-130. Chilled out on the computer and shit. then covert came over and got micha, and mikey showed up! Then um him and mandie left, and came back. Then we all sat and played guitar, slept, basicaly anything. Then we ate dinner.
After dinner we went to Taco Bell and then to leighs old house for some shit. She had to pick some shit up. Her blankets and movies and shit.... ROAD TRIP.... rock....
Then we went to mikey were me and mikey tapped into the game nerd in us. Sat there with his brother and watched him play FFX. Talked about the game and blitzball and all the other Final Fantasy games. We are total nerds. But that is kewl. Leigh made fun of us. Boo Hoo lol.
So then we got home at like 11. I got on the net and started talkin to Jackie. I was suddenly compelled to go over to her house. So i went over. Was there till about 12:30. We watched the Placebo DVD. Was fun. I had cake... yum... good cake. Then when i was about to leave we were readin her AIM messages and it appears that leigh had been tryin to contact us from like 10min after i left the house till right before i left lol. My parents had woken up i guess and were pisst i wasnt home. But its kewl when i got home my dad wasnt mad or anything. Im a big boy i can handle being out at 12:30. So yea... LIVI... and.... HEATHER.... you guys suck! Another time jackie another time! 
So anywho im out, i had a rather weird and fun day! Laterz | | |
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